Yes, I am aware that I completely skipped a whole month here. Over, actually. But it's simple.. I have no reason to write. I really believe.. I have gone into depression. I have been fairly happy this few days.. even this moment I'm feeling pretty good but the unhappy and sad part is taking over. I have a LOT to say. And there are actually some people out there who have said they miss my updates (yes, I am surprised as you are stranger ;)) So this is mainly for you. But also for me, since I feel strange not continuing with something that I have done for so long.
Wow. Where do I start? Maybe if I look in my *real* diary... *looks through it* WOAH. I just realized that even in my real diary I only wrote once in April. Oops.. no I didn't. Wow I was really screwed that month. I wrote two dates that were suppose to be April.. but I wrote them as March. Oops. And I'm cutting my mouth up with ice as I type. Ouch. Annnyways. I didn't write in April after the 27th. So I'll start with May 12th:
Lately I've been very stressed because of school (AP test, English project) friends, and school. Yesterday was the AP European History test and it was hard. I think the only part I did good on was the DBQ (Data Based Question) where they give the data and you just answer the question with it. Friday coming up I get to go on a field trip to Jackson Park on a picnic with the special ed kids yay! I was complimented today at work (2-7pm) by this one lady when I came back from break and said "I'm back, did you miss me!?" And she said "Coool man! That boy can't keep up!" I said "Neither can I" and she said "Yes you can!" So I take that as a big compliment considering she's a pretty quick cashier.
Then I talked about this guy I like.. and have come to like a lot more since I suspected he liked me before I liked him. About how he walked me home.. asked lots of questions and stuff.. yadayada. On May 16th I talked about how jealous I was of this girl's hair, who had it exactly the way I wish I could get mine. The next day I got my hair cut the shortest I've ever had it and it felt great.. grown back a lot since then though. On the 19th I wrote:
Yesterday I went on the field trip to the park with the special ed kids. It was fun! I hung out with the 12th grade helpers since they were the only ones I knew who went. We sat together at lunch also. We kept cracking up because everytime someone got up from the table, the whole thing tipped. I wrote more than that, but you get the general idea. It was cool.
I got my class ring on the 25th, it's nice. $85 at Target. One side has my name and the word orchestra with string instruments. The stone is pink for my birthstone (Oct.) The other side has 2003 and NHS with it's symbol. (National Honor Society) It's silver/white gold. Size 8 1/2. Kinda big, could have got an 8. On the 28th we had off for Memorial Day but I had work for 5 1/2 hours. I got paid extra since it was a holiday! :) AND $12 in tips, the most I ever got in one day. On June 2nd, I also got $12 in tips.. just "rollin' in the dough" right? lol. They had me show a new boy how to bag, I felt special my manager thinks I'm good enough for that. On the 5th...... WOAH. That was the best day I've had for awhile. So much fun. I talked about a guy I like.. I really don't feel like typing it out but if people want to read it.. tell me in my guestbook and I'll type it for you. :) I'm trying to have faith and encouragement to ask him out.. people tell me they think he likes me and I'm hoping!
And that's about it up until now. I got my yearbook. Last day of school was yesterday. Next week I'm in a summer academy for 1/2 a credit and we go on 2 field trips in those 5 days. Today I spent the most I've ever spent at one time on just clothes.. $150. It was a lot of fun. I got a cute skirt, 4 tops (black w/sparkly rose, Smurfs, Strawberry Shortcake, Candy Land), a halter top, and some dressy pants for work. I also got two pairs of shorts. :D I needed clothes so bad. I can actually still use a lot more but now I'm broke. Hehe. That's all I have to say for now.. you may be seeing more entries by me since I'm on summer vacation now and don't have to worry about school for a few months. *Relieved* :) *Hugs to everyone who said they missed my updates*